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Talk about how the pandemic has affected your closest relationships.

We became inseparable in an AP world history class my junior year of high school. We were so enthusiastic and happy together, our teacher acknowledged us as his favorite students on the last day of school that year. We had known each other since we were in sixth grade, both students in a children's choir at a local conservatory, but we didn't become friends until that class. I felt like I could be 100% organically myself with her. I could be loud and weird, and instead of judging me, she would join me. We were referred to as the two old lady friends, and frankly we both thought that we would eventually become that. She and I both shared a similar broken household. On the surface, we both repressed it, but on a deeper level we didn't handle it the same. Being sent home for the remainder of the semester seemed like hell for the both of us. She also doesn't like texting. I worked on myself while at home. I shut my door and worked on both my mental and physical health, and emerged with a different attitude towards life. She remained radio silent on my end. Towards the end of April, we both knew that we had gotten into our top school, and for us, our top school was the same. When I read the text that she didn't want me to go to this school, it felt as if a part of me died. My person, the human whom I loved and shared so many happy memories with, didn't want me to go to the same school as her, even though she knew that it was also my top school. I tried to rationalize it, but it still burned my soul. Later on she apologized and we talked about it, but a part of me knew that the scar would always be there. She still doesn't text as much and I miss my friend. I know that she was reacting in such a way due to her environment, as I was also familiar with the hate and pain caused by my environment, often deflecting it towards myself, but even so, it felt like a break up. Anyways, I miss her and I hope that we can soon be old ladies making CVS runs and eating ice cream in her car again soon.