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Talk about how the pandemic has affected your closest relationships.

<strong> We became inseparable in an AP world history class my junior year of high school</strong>. We were so enthusiastic and happy together, our teacher acknowledged us as his favorite students on the last day of school that year.<strong> We had known each other since we were in sixth grade, both students in a children's choir at a local conservatory, but we didn't become friends until that class</strong>. I felt like I could be 100% organically myself with her. I could be loud and weird, and instead of judging me, she would join me.<strong> We were referred to as the two old lady friends, and frankly we both thought that we would eventually become that.</strong> She and I both shared a similar broken household. On the surface, we both repressed it, but on a deeper level we didn't handle it the same.<strong> Being sent home for the remainder of the semester seemed like hell for the both of us. She also doesn't like texting. I worked on myself while at home</strong>. I shut my door and worked on both my mental and physical health, and emerged with a different attitude towards life.<strong> She remained radio silent</strong> on my end. Towards the end of April,<strong> we both knew that we had gotten into our top school, and for us, our top school was the same. When I read the text that she didn't want me to go to this school, it felt as if a part of me died.</strong> My person, the human whom I loved and shared so many happy memories with, didn't want me to go to the same school as her, even though she knew that it was also my top school. I tried to rationalize it, but it still burned my soul. Later on she apologized and we talked about it, but a part of me knew that the scar would always be there. She still doesn't text as much and I miss my friend. I know that she was reacting in such a way due to her environment, as I was also familiar with the hate and pain caused by my environment, often deflecting it towards myself, but even so,<strong> it felt like a break up. Anyways, I miss her and I hope that we can soon be old ladies making CVS runs and eating ice cream in her car again soon.</strong>