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Has the pandemic affected your religious or spiritual observance in any way? If so, talk about it.

I was never much of a religious observer. Until I was out on my own I attended church services in the service of someone else rather than myself. I had a "religious" wedding to satisfy the desire of family members, not because I wanted one. I would have preferred something different, but not enough to fight for it. But I started attending a Friends online meeting a couple of months ago. I attended some meetings many years ago, liked the peacefulness an the silence and was frankly starved for interaction, even if the interaction was sitting in a quiet place for an hour, online, with a bunch of strangers. I have started to look forward to attending now. Some weeks it still feels like a chore, as if I am checking off a box for my day. I still find myself resenting the time I am spending, mentally listing out the other options I have for that hour of the morning. But I make myself go and sit online silently and it is helping. It is helping in my thinking during the week. It is helping me to deal with all the feelings of anger, jealously and frustration this pandemic has provoked. The only preaching I am hearing is the thoughts in my head.