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Talk about how the pandemic has affected your closest relationships.

... Through all of this, I learned a few things about my closest relationships and my relationship with myself. I grew a lot in the time of the pandemic. I learned to sit at home, read, listen and find things that I liked to do. I am pretty new in my recovery, this October it'll be three years, I'm still trying to figure out who I am and what I like to do. In my addiction, I didn't have my son. I had just got him back full time in December right before the pandemic hit. This gave us so much time to bond and figure out our relationship. We needed that more than anything. Even though he was only five at the time, there still was a lot of hurt and bad feelings that he had for me. Which is completely understandable. It was really hard the first few months, I just automatically thought that when I got him back, everything would be easy. This was not the case, he didn't trust me, didn't listen to me, I had a very hard time understanding how to relate to him. He is an old soul, and probably because he had to go through some very adult like things in his young years. The shut down gave us a chance to really be together and we did so many beautiful things. Whether it was hiking, sitting outside, painting, playing games, it was really good for us. We have come so far since then, it's truly amazing. I keep making my living amends to him, which is making sure he has everything he needs, emotionally, physically, mentally, and just making sure I'm here for him every single day. I learned that I don't have to just hang out with anyone and just say yes, I can say no. I can sit at home and be completely contect, which is huge for me too. I can run away from feelings but remaining busy. It was very hard to sit with myself for a long time. I felt being told to stay at home really helped me in this way. I slowed down, and got to know me again. And I can still be content just sitting at home, I still don't really care to go out much. This can be a bad thing for me too, but I'm learning how to balance.