Text Only

How is the coronavirus pandemic affecting your life right now? Tell us about your experiences, feelings, and thoughts.

The darkness of January has set in. <strong>It's been Groundhog Day over here. No in-person fire pit nights or outdoor hangouts.</strong> It's freezing outside and I think there is fatigue.<strong> It is almost like we just want to wait until spring</strong>. I am tired of trying. I almost prefer to sit the rest out until the weather warms. So a funk for sure. Work has been busy which is great as I can dive in and just focus on that. However, the guilt sets in as I have a 5th grader at home. She is a very independent learner, but she as been lonely as I usually work part time and we can keep each other company or do stuff half the week. I am grateful that I work part time normally. It helps to keep us all sane. I can clean the toilets - that kind of thing. However,<strong> my mind has been heavy with the terrible fact that I have three people in my life with cancer.</strong> My aunt - 62, a friend at 70 and another friend - 40's. <strong> These people are suffering at one of the hardest times of their lives and their loved ones can't sit by them in the hospital.</strong> COVID is a nightmare. People are outside peering in windows or freezing in 17 degree weather talking to doctors because they can't be in the hospital (but are outside just in case). <strong> Vaccines are crazy. Its is like at the start of the pandemic when you would keep refreshing your browser to see if open slots came up for grocery delivery.</strong> I am not old enough to be eligible, but I am hearing this from everyone else. It's a really fractured and frustrating system. <strong>My parents are in their 70's and they have appointments in April (its Jan.)</strong> <strong> I want this to be over</strong> and I don't want to be sad and scared of death anymore. I always am to be honest, but middle age is a bitch. Add COVID and its always on the periphery.