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How is the coronavirus pandemic affecting your life right now? Tell us about your experiences, feelings, and thoughts.

Well, It's starting to feel a little like a rabbit hole now. In we go, and in we stay.<strong> Every night now I'm having a similar dream, in that I'm somewhere in public, and I don't have a mask and no one else does either. I wake up in a panic.</strong> The dream takes place in multiple settings--concerts, school, work, socializing with friends. Overall,<strong> it says the same thing to me: I'm scared, and this is our new reality.</strong> This week my family made a decision to hunker down. We're getting food delivered and avoiding all indoor spaces as much as we can. The numbers are really frightening. I cannot get over the number of people who believe that it's their right to be "Free' to not wear a mask, even it makes others sick and overwhelms the health professionals. I feel like I say the same thing every week, but every morning the news reports the same thing. This week we even had a couple that got on a flight from SFO to Hawaii, knowing they had tested positive. It is enough to make a misanthrope out of anyone! I do feel lucky, though, My spouse has a steady job and we have savings. I have great, cheerful friends and we are keeping each other afloat via the phone. <strong> One thing I've had fun with this week. the NYT has a "Calculator"</strong> where you can put in your age, county, profession and health status and it <strong>will tell you approximately how many people are in front fo you for the vaccine. My 21 year old son and I both have 280 million people ahead of us</strong> for the vaccine. This made me laugh. We joked that he and I will be wearing masks for a LONG time. Meanwhile,<strong> my spouse, who works in the schools, only has 100 million people in front of him. And my daughter, who is graduating as a nurse, will be first in line</strong> as a health care worker. <strong> I laugh because honestly, it's all so absurd, how badly we humans have failed this test as a supposedly advanced society.</strong> And if I didn't work to constantly find humor, I'd be so depressed I wouldn't get out of bed. I choose not to live that way. We will get out of this. It's just going to take a while.