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How is the coronavirus pandemic affecting your life right now? Tell us about your experiences, feelings, and thoughts.

This week has been difficult emotionally. I thought I had attained some sort of relatively zen and hopeful state of mind by being hopeful about the vaccine rollout (my parents and mother-in-law having received their first shot), but the delicate castle I had built for myself came tumbling down. There are a lot of variants circulating in my region and the provincial government has been systematically extremely late to react and has explicitly stated that they are waiting until the worst happens (which basically means, until it's too late) to put further restrictions. They have been toying with people's hopes by reopening and then closing things back up again in a matter of days. It's tiring. People are fed up with this, myself included. I had to go to the hospital to pick up my husband after a test he had to do this week. I entered the building and there were so many people all around and the building was cramped, I felt I was going to have a panic attack. I felt my heart racing, I was almost in tears and couldn't find him - the hospital was a maze. I was in there perhaps 10 minutes, but it made me realize how not ready I am to be in crowded places. It was a brutal reminder that the pandemic has affected my mental health more than I had realized. I feel more anxious and distrustful of people more than I probably ever did.